Life is amazing, isn't it? So many downs, but then they make the ups seem sky high! I am finally in love with a great man who loves me for me and even wants to spoil me. I am taking great classes with an eye for the future and my own well being. I have the new camera, Kindle, and Chromebook (thanks to my sweetie of course). So things are great in some sense. But then there are those things that suck. Being disabled and trying to figure out how do I make money, apply for disability? And that led to some very foul treatment from people that just ruined me at the time. Dealing with chronic pain, PTSD, and other issues I wont type just hits the lowest points possible. So for now, it's accepting the good with the bad. After all, life is an experience, a journey we have to take. And my walk through time almost ended. I have wondered sometimes that maybe I cheated death and I wasn't supposed to, so I was being punished for it. Can we be alive if we are not supposed to be? Does it even matter?
What's important is that we make the most of what we have, and that we never give up. Inner strength is one of our greatest psychological gifts. But too many people just fold. They quit, fall over and die without being dead. And what is the point of that?
We are here, and I know too well how easily we may not be here tomorrow. So, we do what we can, and strive for what is most important. Balance. Life will always have downs, tragedies; but life will always have ups too, comedies and love stories. If you just don't give up, get too comfortable in bad situations, make excuses, and live in the moment without numbing the mind then we can all get through it, and find those happy moments we deserve. Hell, we may even win in the end.
So, keep going... even through the walls.
Listening to: TOOL Lateralus
Reading: Gotham Writers Workshop & The Alienist
Watching: Vampire Diaries
Eating: Nutella and cookies
Drinking: Sierra Mist and Cranberry juice